In reality, I belong to the type of person who doesn't like to communicate with others. A few months ago, I retested my MBTI and found that my introverted nature was still very high, confirming this judgment.
However, as a fox wandering in a river full of English fish, "speaking" has become an important part of improving my professional level (the four aspects of language learning: listening, speaking, reading, and writing). So when I entered school, I planned to change the situation as much as possible - just this month, I participated in at least two group interviews and made an effort to interact with friendly people.
Last weekend, I went to the interview of the student union of the college. However, due to my negligence, I didn't submit the registration form. But with the thought that maybe it would still work out, I went to the interview site in the drizzling rain. I greeted the senior students at the scene and anxiously waited (because I decided to go at the last minute, I didn't prepare any scripts). Fortunately, the interview process went smoothly, and the senior students from the technical department didn't make it too difficult for me. As I was writing my last weekly journal, I was successfully hired. (But it could also be because there were too few people in the department conducting interviews...)
To be honest, I was quite nervous during the interview process because it was the first time I faced interviewers in front of so many people (I don't know how to describe it, so let's just say that). The interview took place in a large conference room, with the interviewers sitting in the front rows and the interviewees waiting at the back. But after the interview, I felt a sense of relief, like a huge weight lifted off my shoulders.
I still remember what the teacher said in our comprehensive English class on Wednesday when guiding us to speak. The general idea was that there is a difference between social anxiety and shyness. One is not willing to initiate conversations but can talk endlessly once they start, while the other genuinely doesn't want to speak and is reserved in their words.
This statement inspired me a lot. Later, I realized that "social anxiety" itself is a type defined by people. As the saying goes, rules are dead, but people can be alive (note: without advocating illegal or negative behavior). In other words, people can break free from this framework by doing certain things. I felt more relieved and everything became clearer.
Oh, now that you've read this far, you might be wondering about the other interview. Although it doesn't fall within the scope of this week, I'll briefly mention it in case someone is curious. There is a "University Student Innovation and Entrepreneurship Center" directly managed by the Academic Affairs Office in the school (in simpler terms, it's a science and technology innovation center plus a bunch of related clubs, but in a basic version). Before the open day collective visit, I thought it would be a good opportunity to get in touch with technology, so I quickly filled out their registration form while they were giving a presentation. After that, there was a relatively long wait. After registration, there was an interview, and then a second interview. However, the second interview didn't concern me because I didn't pass the first interview (crying).
Because it was the first week of classes, the academic pressure wasn't too great. Apart from comprehensive English and phonetics, which required active participation, the rest of the classes could be considered as being a "transparent" student, which was quite friendly for me at the moment.
Of course, to solve this problem, I also "spent an extra 5 yuan on a 3D printer" (source) and joined an association in the maker space. I went there four or five times, but until the seminar this week, I didn't really think about the meaning of the money spent. It wasn't until the evening before I went home that I attended the seminar and got two things for free:
I felt that the money was well spent.
The atmosphere in that association was quite harmonious and friendly (core values?). At least it was like that in the evening. I vaguely remember an awkward moment - besides the sharing session, there was also a process of experiencing laser engraving for free, and the finished product could be taken home (something like the image above). However, hardly anyone came during the evening. When the senior student from the modeling department asked in the group if anyone else was coming, I threw a bait in the group saying that those who didn't register could come. Of course, I was eventually discovered because of the photos taken on the spot. The conversation that followed was quite awkward for a while, but then it loosened up (thanks to the phrase "don't be so restrained"). I was even praised for "knowing more than me" because I opened Figma to showcase my design drafts, etc. (but I think it was more because I use Linux...). Later, I watched the process and also took a small NFC light from the previous event.
There was also a Future Technology Industry Expo this week, but it didn't concern me much, and the performance was not very impressive (except for the drone performance that couldn't be seen clearly from the back row), so I won't write about it.
Finally, we've come to the last part (looking up). Although this week was busy and I didn't learn much, I still managed to get through the week smoothly. How should I put it, even though we are always labeling people and may use it as a standard to judge others, "social anxiety" is actually one of the "labels" that divides groups. But we shouldn't let it restrict us from breaking free. The MBTI test is also more about labeling ourselves and finding that feeling of "being a wanderer in the world" in the vast sea of people. As for its reliability, it completely depends on oneself.
Lastly, I want to quote a comment from the documentary "INFJ-T 4W5 Legend":
"The world is wrong because it is always on the path to what is right. Only after you truly accept your true self can others accept the real you."
Whispering: I originally wanted to use the Vercel og image playground to create the cover, but I couldn't solve the issue of cross-domain images, so I temporarily used Figma to design the cover... And the background of the cover was taken by myself on the last day before going home from school, but no one asked me.